give me the stars

Years have past
I thought I'd be okay
Making your life miserable
it'd make the hurt go away
but still to this day
i'm lost without a clue
of how i'm suppose to go on living
this life without you
the stars have changed positions
the colors seem to fade
I sit here restless
needing something to say
all I want right now
is to see you face to face
to see the world thru your eyes
to hopefully find some truth
I wanted to see the world with you
and now things have changed
all I want is to see the stars one more time
with you...hand and hand
I thought that thru the years
that revenge would ease the pain
instead i'm just more empty
more distressed; more dead
although a child grows deep inside my womb
i'm still feel like something is missing
that person/thing is you
the stars have changed positions
the colors seem to fade
I sit here restless
needing something to say
all I want right now
is to see you face to face
to see the world thru your eyes
to hopefully find some truth
I wanted to see the world with you
and now things have changed
all I want is to see the stars one more time
with you...hand and hand
please understand i'm sorry
for the pain that I brought on you
I was naïve and wreckless
I wanted you to feel the pain I felt
no gimmicks anymore
no hate no forgive me's
just know that i'm sorry
i'm still learning how to live....
the stars have changed positions
the colors seem to fade
I sit here restless
needing something to say
all I want right now
is to see you face to face
to see the world thru your eyes
to hopefully find some truth
I wanted to see the world with you
and now things have changed
all I want is to see the stars one more time
with you...hand and hand
just give me the stars...
just one more time!

 

one last thing

There have been so many times within the last 3 years where i've stood up and i've taken the blame for things that I didn't do. There have been so many times where i let my name go due to slander because maybe i didn't do all the right things. But i'll be damned if anyone calls me a slut now! I don't stand behind anyone. I don't rely on God because I know that I"m not worthy of his grace and yet he's blessed me. Sitting here and being told that i'm a liar and that my in laws know about everything thats happened and that my ex husband hates me. That people warn me when him and his "girlfriend" are around because they think that i should stand in the shadows and cower. I don't think so. I'm one person i'm not gonna stop being me and run away because thats what people want me to do. I'm an not a push over. I have a boyfriend who loves me. Why in the world am I gonna go sleeping around? I don't have to explain my life to anyone. NO ONE KNOWS WHO I AM AND WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME?

   As for my ex husband...hopefully youll figure out the truth and you'll get your head out of your butt. You can do whatever you want and tell whatever lies you want to tell go ahead and keep telling them. I'm stronger than you think i am and i'll continue to survive with my son with out you!

One last thing

that girl that you love so much...go after her....you guys are perfect for each other.