My love,
the questions keep piling up on why we should hold on.
What is there to hold onto....why is everything so messed up and wrong?
I never wanted to leave your side.
but you got too close.
too close to the secrets i've kept
to close for me to let you know.
With every ounce of my being theres residual hate for myself
a hate that is the remnants of past mistakes that I can't change
I want to make excuses up; lying is easy.
But deep down i know the truth and i'm sorry that I hurt you.
there's no greater fear in life then the fear of being alone
and yes there is my son to consider...but what happens when he's grown?
He'll always be my son. But he will not always be by my side.
I cant think straight for all the things i want to tell you. The thunder is rumbling the windows and i'm distracted by the calmness the oncoming storm brings me.
Remember when i was afraid of the thunder? That was so long ago!
The times that we would sit on the porch and just listen to the rain on the tin roof
Or the times that I'd wake up from a nightmare and you'd just pull me into your arms and tell me i'm safe?
Those were the times. the times that i'll never forget.
Now I get to hold my little miracle in my arms in the storms.
But now...i am searching for the little piece of me that is still alive without you.
How do I accept myself; being me without you? We were a force to be reckoned with....and i let it just fall apart on fear.
i want to say that somewhere in my heart that i don't love you...and maybe it's more apparent than I like to believe. I want to believe that I can bounce back and start a life with someone new. That I can love them just as much if not more that what i ever felt for you....but its not working.
Everytime I turn around theres something that reminds me of you. When i'm far away all i think about is you. When i go to bed and when i wake up you are the first thought in my head.
And after all this time i'm still praying that i'll wake up next to you. You've always been my man. even when you weren't. In my head you were still mine.
But now it's time. It's time to part ways. we were once travelling in the same direction and now we're going in two different directions. Goodbyes are never easy. And so I won't say goodbye. But i'm not willing to wait any longer for the rain in the desert. I can only leave you with this.
So Long...Good Luck....I love you forever and always.
the questions keep piling up on why we should hold on.
What is there to hold onto....why is everything so messed up and wrong?
I never wanted to leave your side.
but you got too close.
too close to the secrets i've kept
to close for me to let you know.
With every ounce of my being theres residual hate for myself
a hate that is the remnants of past mistakes that I can't change
I want to make excuses up; lying is easy.
But deep down i know the truth and i'm sorry that I hurt you.
there's no greater fear in life then the fear of being alone
and yes there is my son to consider...but what happens when he's grown?
He'll always be my son. But he will not always be by my side.
I cant think straight for all the things i want to tell you. The thunder is rumbling the windows and i'm distracted by the calmness the oncoming storm brings me.
Remember when i was afraid of the thunder? That was so long ago!
The times that we would sit on the porch and just listen to the rain on the tin roof
Or the times that I'd wake up from a nightmare and you'd just pull me into your arms and tell me i'm safe?
Those were the times. the times that i'll never forget.
Now I get to hold my little miracle in my arms in the storms.
But now...i am searching for the little piece of me that is still alive without you.
How do I accept myself; being me without you? We were a force to be reckoned with....and i let it just fall apart on fear.
i want to say that somewhere in my heart that i don't love you...and maybe it's more apparent than I like to believe. I want to believe that I can bounce back and start a life with someone new. That I can love them just as much if not more that what i ever felt for you....but its not working.
Everytime I turn around theres something that reminds me of you. When i'm far away all i think about is you. When i go to bed and when i wake up you are the first thought in my head.
And after all this time i'm still praying that i'll wake up next to you. You've always been my man. even when you weren't. In my head you were still mine.
But now it's time. It's time to part ways. we were once travelling in the same direction and now we're going in two different directions. Goodbyes are never easy. And so I won't say goodbye. But i'm not willing to wait any longer for the rain in the desert. I can only leave you with this.
So Long...Good Luck....I love you forever and always.
