Everything to me

I was sitting on the back porch listening to a song by Avalon called Everything to me. Im not sure where the song orginated but the words are so powerful. My heart is so sad here in the last week. Its like no matter how hard i try to keep my cool im kinda coming unglued. I have a drive now that i am to do everything for God. My husband and I are really not on good terms and i miss him tremendously. Theres not a moment that goes by that i dont pray for him. Pray without ceasing. As for me...im finding im seeking this stupi addiction this parasite bring me down. Yet at the same time im feeling alone. Although i have a series of prayer warriors behind me and arelifting me up in prayer im still working on picking up my cross daily. The last week the cross im carrying has been so heavy that i just want to walk away. Im still being faithful but the devil is working so hard at my heart. Hes got me wishing and wantin wat God is telling me to wait on. As i look at my life...so far i dont have a legacy to give to my children when i have them. I want to be able to say that being of the world is the sure way to hell. I want to tell them that i will fast and pray for them even though they are not born. I want t be sure that i can be a good mother and keep them prayed up at all times. Right now its me and God against the world. And right now im the one thats falling. And still hes pickingme up. Hes holding my hand and carrying me thru these troubled times.
Keep praying. Keep seeking God. Keep studying the word. God is good. All the time. All the time. My God is good.

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Love is Faithful

As part of everything going on in my life, I've learned to be faithful. I'm a faithful wife (now) I'm a faithful friend. I'm a faithful daughter to God...all that there is to be faithful to comes with a large amount of loyalty. Even when we don't think that we can be anymore faithful, I'm finding new ways to do so. I've decided id like to be the sole provider for my home. I don't want to see my husband go to a job he can't stand. Id much rather him help those whom have been good to us and serve the Lord. Taking care of others is so uplifting. Its rewarding within itself. All the joy that comes from helping I glorified in God as long as we are glorifying the right way. Sometimes we tend to toot our own horns. I've found that when and ifi toot my own horn I'm a guilty mess. Faith is the key that unlocks the door.
Are we faithful enough?

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inspiring friend!

The best kind of praise is the praise that comes from a broken heart. No one can sing our hallelujahs! No one can take our blessings. My friend Marlene is a living inspiring testimony. She is currently overweight and we areworking together to get her healthy. She went to zumba with me last night. She so amazing. I was worried she sit outb theb whole time. She kept up! No this isnt because i had doubt in her. I didnt want her to push herself to the point of hurting herself. She stuck it out and felt amazing! It brings so much joy to my heart that i can help be a strong tower. The reason im talking about inspiration right now is because we all need to be inspired. We all need that someone to look up to. This amazing friend of min has been put thru the ringer time and time again. Yet, no matter what the circumstances, she still praises God. Her inspiration comes from theb foot of the cross, and i just thank God that he has kept her in my life. She has become an inspiring force in my life.
So today ask yourself...what inspires me to keep going? If its a wordly thing be careful. Treasures on earth are temporary. If its Godly, then pray that it stays Godly. I encourag you to look into your heart an.d find inspiration!
Be blessed ya'll

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Affliction and Addiction

Psalm 31:1-24 NIV

In you, Lord, I have taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame;
deliver me in your righteousness. Turn your ear to me,
come quickly to my rescue;
be my rock of refuge,
a strong fortress to save me. Since you are my rock and my fortress,
for the sake of your name lead and guide me. Keep me free from the trap that is set for me,
for you are my refuge. Into your hands I commit my spirit;
deliver me, Lord, my faithful God. I hate those who cling to worthless idols;
as for me, I trust in the Lord. I will be glad and rejoice in your love,
for you saw my affliction
and knew the anguish of my soul. You have not given me into the hands of the enemy
but have set my feet in a spacious place. Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am in distress;
my eyes grow weak with sorrow,
my soul and body with grief. My life is consumed by anguish
and my years by groaning;
my strength fails because of my affliction,
and my bones grow weak. Because of all my enemies,
I am the utter contempt of my neighbors
and an object of dread to my closest friends—
those who see me on the street flee from me. I am forgotten as though I were dead;
I have become like broken pottery. For I hear many whispering,
"Terror on every side!"
They conspire against me
and plot to take my life. But I trust in you, Lord;
I say, "You are my God." My times are in your hands;
deliver me from the hands of my enemies,
from those who pursue me. Let your face shine on your servant;
save me in your unfailing love. Let me not be put to shame, Lord,
for I have cried out to you;
but let the wicked be put to shame
and be silent in the realm of the dead. Let their lying lips be silenced,
for with pride and contempt
they speak arrogantly against the righteous. How abundant are the good things
that you have stored up for those who fear you,
that you bestow in the sight of all,
on those who take refuge in you. In the shelter of your presence you hide them
from all human intrigues;
you keep them safe in your dwelling
from accusing tongues. Praise be to the Lord,
for he showed me the wonders of his love
when I was in a city under siege. In my alarm I said,
"I am cut off from your sight!"
Yet you heard my cry for mercy
when I called to you for help. Love the Lord, all his faithful people!
The Lord preserves those who are true to him,
but the proud he pays back in full. Be strong and take heart,
all you who hope in the Lord.

Affliction: is something that hinders you.
Addiction: is something we can't go without.

This morning I used Psalm 31. I chose this verse today because of the storm that is raging in my heart. I am the leader of my heart. I am in control of my emotions. Yet, I spend more time loving people who don't love me in return than I do anything else. The pain from this isn't too bad. However, it has caused way to a continuing addiction. In my pain I take refuge in smoking. God still has my heart but the fleshly humanly need for that nicotine fix drives me crazy! Sometimes I want to just cry my eyes out for smoking. I don't even like it. So here I am being afflicted and am resorting to an addiction I don't like. It sounds stupid but God is working on me hardcore. My heart has been changed completely. So much that I gave up the one thing/ person I care abouton this earth. He was hurting and I told him id stop being that love he needs. Ill be a friend and simply pray for him. I just kept praying for God to upset the foundation to show him he's wrong...in the process I realized he loves her. So I started praying they can work itout. No matter how much pain we've had in our life...God can fix it. No one loves us as much as God. So I've handed my everything to God. Having nothing means that I have gained everything.
So on this chilly october morning pray for you addictions. Ask God to help you conquer them. Ask him to be your rock and salvation when the times get rough.
I'm praying for you all,

Blessings!

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Theres no place like home

Well since I haven't been doing these devotions in the last few days things have been crazy! I moved back to WV. I have been pulled over 2 times since I've been here. Its just a great big mess. And with me trying to savor the moment of being home I kinda stopped praying and reading the bible. Within my love dare however, it was about God interceding. I know that my husband needs prayer bad. However...I can only pray so much for him. He's got to be willing to get on his face and pray for himself! So I'm praying for an intervention in hislife so tha God will shake his crumbling foundation more to bring him back to the logical sense made God fearing man he used to be. So I guess the challenge today can be this...hope for the best in every situation you are in. God will bless you when you least expect it. Be strong and know that God is with you!

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stand or fall

Stand for something or Fall for anything
When you hear a statement like: what do you stand for?...whats the first thing that comes to mind? I stand for... is the typical response. I had told my friend Patrick that i was reading the book of Esther. I was simply explaining how she stood up for her people when the head guard was going to pretty much annhilate all the Jews.
With that in mind what do we stand for? For those of us that are christians we want to believe we stand for God. That we are powerhouses and want people to think we never do wrong...yep we're a bunch of liars. Truth be told we fall on our faces daily and need a hand getting picked up
So the challenge today is to find what our purpose is. Ask God what is your purpose in my life and wait for a response. He will tell you in HIS own time. Thy will...not my will. Be patient. God will reveal his mystery when he knows your ready to hear it!
Be blessed!

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the church

There's a song by Lecrae called The Bride.
This song is so amazing. Its talking about the community between Jesus an the church. Meaning the church isn't the building. The church is the people. Not how many believers it has but its the people in the church that make a church. No matter how beautiful the buildng, layout, alter...the church is the people. We can say that we are a church when we are all sinners. Thankfully, all have fallen short of the glory of God. We spend more time worrying about what the world wants than what God wants. No I'm saying all of us do I but at some point we are all guilty of it. We are all guilty of putting worldy things above God. For example: I am in the process of moving back to WV. I have to pack, get my car fixed, have breaks put on my car, shag balls for more money, clean the house...the list seems never ending. But I stopped and took the time to pray. I MADE time to pray. My soul was satisfied because I prayed. Its such an amazing feeling. Prayer is so powerful! I give all my worries to God. If I dwell on it than the devil gets the best of me. And here lately he's trying hard. I just finished a 10 day fast! I was fasting for the reconciling of my marriage. In the end God has blessed me. I love me. I know that sounds conceited but until I could love myself I couldn't truly love others. And I cry for others. This Lord and Savior we have is so amazing I don't know why more peple don't want to take the narrow road! Yes the path is laid in front of us and we have to willing come to God, yet, the result is so rewarding. Its such a blessin to people. I know its blessed me.
So today I challenge you to open your eyes to every action you make. Try not to swear, talk perverted, be open to suggestions, use our manners, and pray.
If you aren't a believer know that God is in everything. Seek him. He will change your life!

I'm praying for you all!
Blessings!

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