Numb/ What changed

This week has been a good week but it's just been a particularly memory filled. It's like everywhere i turned around there's something that reminds me of things that make me smile and laugh. Things that just take my breath away and make my knees go weak. I've made some decisions in the last week that probably we're the smartest but i can't regret them because they are what i wanted. There have been so many things this week that remind me of the good times. And it seems like I've done nothing but cry all week. My words have been more vulgar because of anger in my heart and I don't want to be that girl. I don't want to be the girl that can't hold her tongue when someone decides to talk trash about her. I want to be the girl that can hold her temper and let it go. I'm tired of people telling me i need to grow up and move on and get over things because it's not healthy...what is healthy? What do we do that's truly healthy for us? If we drink too much it's unhealthy; if we smoke, we're unhealthy...there are so many destructive things that we do in our lives that people want to point out and say that we need to change because we are sinning and because we need to be the better example. Well just because my sin is different from your sin doesn't mean that your habit is healthy and mine is unhealthy. ok i'm done ranting for the moment....

here's a new poem i wrote:

On this cold November day
the tears don't stop falling
As time slips away I remember
the way you'd hold me tight and kiss my forehead gently
through all the stormy nights we had
We loved in a way that we were unstoppable
we had a bond in us we couldn't be torn apart
In public the smiles showed we were in love...
what changed? what changed?
All i do is reminisce now
since your in someone elses arms.
you keep her warm at night
it's like our lives weren't one
Maybe i'm crazy for loving you still
what changed? what changed?
We loved in a way that we were unstoppable
we had a bond in us we couldn't be torn apart
In public the smiles showed we were in love...
I changed; you changed
on this cold November day...
we fell apart.